Doors

Today, I have just realized how off track I have gotten. So many things have been going on and I have not had a chance to really focus. I have so many thank you cards to send out. Every time I got to do it, I get distracted. I need to go home and do that tonight. I feel absolutely awful that I have not done it yet. I am a mess with this right now. Maybe if I cleaned up, I could foucs and get myself together.... HMMM... What a thought. Just know, that if you are reading this, I have NOT forgotten. Life has just been extremely hectic lately.

And just in case you wanted to know, tomorrow is my moms birthday!

And I need to stay on top of my dates because I have yet to finish enrolling in my courses. That would be so easy to do if the faculties all posted the classes at the same time. But no, they each have their own date. I am so across the board on what to take. I have registered for two classes, which I have yet to let my advisor know about... do that in an email.... now.

Now thats done. So far I have registered for Modern Czech Theatre and Development and Development of Ethnic Relations in the Czech which may roughly translate to 10 hours! How great would that be to have 3 classes!!! Oh my! I may like this too much. I think they will both be extremely exciting and informative. I actually like both topics and since I dont know much on the area, this will be a good eye opener for me. And I want to take the Czech for Foreigners course, but I dont know how many hours that is.

A few days ago, I realized just what I have gotten myself into. My first realization came when I had to get insurance. That was not the problem, it was reading about getting my body back to the states if something were to happen to me... and insurance would gladly pay for it. It hit me that I am going to the other side of the world, by MYSELF! I have to do this on my own, look out for myself. Be independent. I then realized the other day that I leave in 2 months and I will be away from all things familiar. And what am I honestly going to do when I cannot understand the language.

Hahaha I will be that kid pantamiming on the street trying to figure out how to get back to my dorm from the centre. How great this is going to be. Lol. And then one day when Im all stressed out and feeling down, someone will ask me a question in Czech and I will actually be able to answer. And I will feel like I have conquered the world and really proved to myself, I can actually do it all. This is the only thing that keeps me desiring the thing that seems so ridiculous.

This is an adventure that is beyond me and I have no idea what to expect, what I may encounter, or what will happen. I have such high hopes and dreams of what this may bring for me. This is just the open door for where the rest of the world is going to take me. I have no desire to sit still, my heart is bleeding for more, life, adventure, experience and possiblities. There is NOTHING I cant do. Im determined.